I think I’m gonna post a monthly fearless weight report.
I say “I think” because I might change my mind down the road. We’ll see.
I say “monthly” because I don’t want to fill my blog with massive amounts of talking about my weight. Monthly seems like a good plan.
I say “fearless” because it was my word for 2009 – the year I started making healthier lifestyle choices.
So, here goes it: I’ve gained 3.2 lbs this week. Last week I gained 1.4 lbs. I think big numbers like that deserve to be in larger type. How do I feel? To be honest, I’m ashamed. Trying not to be, but I am.
Hubby gained too. But he still weighs less than me. I think it sucks to be the wife weighing more than her husband. Happy for him, but just sayin’. (You can see our detailed weight stats here – if you are interested in that sorta thing)
I do know exactly what’s happened, so I’m not crying and saying “why, oh why??”. Basically, I believe in everything in moderation and this week there was pretty much NO moderation.
This week, I…
- …didn’t work out or go walking at all. Not once.
- …went out to eat about five times (six times if you include the pizza at Sam’s Club). Here’s a list of all my non-homemade eating this week:
- Yesterday we went shopping and we ate at Wendy’s. I did eat sensibly – a grilled chicken sandwich and potato.
- We also ate at Subway once. I had a 6″ oven roasted chicken breast with no cheese and no condiments (actually forgot to have them add some vinegar and honey mustard).
- While grocery shopping one day, Wellie paid for everyone to get lunch at McDonald’s – David and I (ugh) split a two filet-o-fish meal. We shared our fries with Mattie. So, a good way to eat there if you are going to eat there, but still…ugh.
- Went out on a date with hubby and ate at Smokey Bones (not “fast food”, but casual dining). Again, ate “healthy” but ate bigger portions.
- Also went to Salsarita’s and had a taco salad. It was minus the crispy taco shell, no cheese, no sour cream and included grilled chicken, lots of lettuce, salsa, black beans, and guacamole.
So, yes, made good choices, but ate out WAY too much, in my opinion. Wasted money. I would like that money back. Oh, can’t have it back? Even more sense to not let this happen again. And I honestly don’t want to be eating at fast food restaurants. But I did. The way I see it is if I am going to eat out, I want to eat something better. And I don’t like giving someone else the control over how my food is prepared, which is why I am cooking at home more. Yes, I like eating out and won’t ever give it up entirely, but this amount of “eating out” and these types of restaurants isn’t acceptable to me.
- …ate mindlessly on at least three occasions. Mindlessly = I sat with a bag of something and ate while watching TV or working, rather than portioning it out beforehand. Once I sit with something, I will
probablyend up eating it all. Now, it wasn’t anything bad…it was stuff like almonds, vegetable chips, etc. But still ate way too much.
- …ate pizza on two occasions. Okay, pizza isn’t really worth noting, because pizza can be VERY good for you. But this wasn’t my homemade (fairly healthy) pizza, but a ginormous slice from Sam’s Club at the end of a shopping trip. Then a stuffed crust piece from Pizza Hut (blame it on the kids – they ordered it and shoved it down my throat).
- …had ice cream most days (less fat or sugar-free versions – so I guess I am trying to trick myself into thinking that they were more healthy?).
- …had numerous cookies. Maybe we should do a blog contest to guess how many “numerous” equal?
- …didn’t measure any of my portions this week. This is bad. Moderation only works if you somewhat precise in your moderation. Heaping my plate with homemade macaroni and cheese (recipe coming soon) and calling it 1 cup isn’t helpful. Measuring my portions isn’t something I ALWAYS do anyway because I am good at eyeballing my portions, but I still do measure many things, like my portions of rice, pasta, etc. But didn’t measure a single gram, ounce, pound, or ton.
So, there you have it. I could probably go on a bit more, but those are the main things. I’m a bit nervous putting this all out there. But trying to be fearless. I can feel eyes reading it and say “yeah, you fatso, you deserve it”. And, well, I can agree with that. Losing weight is simple calories in, calories burned. I didn’t do what was necessary the past two weeks.
Time to move on. And, no, I’m not giving up. I will never give up on this.
“If you have made mistakes, even serious ones, there is always another chance for you. What we call failure is not the falling down but the staying down.” ― Mary Pickford